Oh how the time flies!!!

Oh man...

Time seriously flies...

Well. I had my baby girl April 18th, 2007. I named her Emilee Jo. Jo is in honor of one of her Grandmothers.

I left Zac about 2 weeks after she was born because things were so bad. He was cheating on me with a 16 year old. He was extremely violent. We fought every day. Plus, we just didn't have the money to keep living the way we were living. Sooo... I moved back in with my mom... Can't say that I'm happy about that. She's psychotic most of the time....BUT!!! I found the one thing that keeps me sane. My Cody. Cody Osborn...I knew him in high school and we were always friends but, sadly, I was always with Zac and I never gave him a chance...I kick myself now for it, but, I'm so incredibly happy now. I wouldn't trade it for the world. He's like the perfect boyfriend every girl wishes for. He says and does all the right things at the right time...And he's sexy as hell...And he loves my little girl. She loves him too. Which makes me love him more. She gives him kisses all the time. Kisses from a 10 month old. Imagine...LOL! Anyway...I kinda think he's my one. My other half. It's the best feeling in the world to know you don't have to search anymore for the person you're ready to wake up to every morning and face  troubles together...etc...If you're into that anyway...I think I'm ready. And I love that I found the one ready to step up to the plate....Seriously, there are very few 20 year old guys who want to step up and fill the daddy role for a not so involved daddy. Plus, his family adopted 4 kids when they were babies because the mom was a drug addict, and he was like 14 at the time, so , he's been takin care of babies forever....Oh I could go on and on and on....I can't believe I fell soo hard so fast.

Anyway...New subject.

I'm one of those annoying girls who can ramble about her man forever. Sooo...My bad in advance.

I turn 21 in 20 days!!! I can't wait...It's the first and last time I'll ever be excited about buying alcohol...

Speaking of alcohol....My Cody went on a cruise..without me..Long story. And, he bought a bottle of Kahlua...I'm so excited. I can't wait till he gets back. He never drinks, you see...And somehow, he knew that I was thinkin about trying to get him to drink with me...That crazy man.

Anywhooo....I work at Braum's. It's shitty as hell...I'm about to quit. I've been there almost 3 years and I'm gettin so sick of dealing with the BS from the management...They're F***ing retarded....

OOOOhhhh....I get to breath a sigh of relief. I started the other day. I was so worried because I was like a week late and I'm not usually late...I started to freak out...But, then, I cried really hard all night the night before I started so I kinda knew it was coming. But...I definitely don't need another kid right now...1 is enough...I had to babysit all 4 of the younger siblings today...OMG I started to pull my hair out. They would not listen to me for crap... Growl...

And tomorrow, hopefully school is out because I don't want to try to drive all the way to my uncle's house to babysit his hateful baby...I want to throw that one out the window sometimes. All she does is cry. All day long. And there's nothing you can do about it. I just put her in a different room, stick a bottle in her mouth, and turn on the TV.  She'll fall asleep eventually... But, I think I'm more annoyed with the fact that my uncle asked me to babysit for them for a month while they looked for a daycare...But, that was last November. Now she's 6 mos and she's gettin harder to handle...I told them the end of March though was when the had to find a daycare by.

Sooo...I guess I'm gonna go. My hands hurt and I need a cigarette...I just spilled my guts...Feels like I just had sex...

I wish...Damnit!

TERMINATING!

Wow! I haven't written on this thing in like 2-3 years...Things are completely different...I live with Zac...Great fun. We've lived together for almost 2 years...It'll be 2 years the 29th of this month...Damn...That's forever...Ummm...I'm about to go to college...I don't know what I'm taking...But at least I'm finally doing something with myself...I'm sick of being a loser with NO MONEY! I have no car...I had a Taurus...You couldn't pay me all the damn money in the world to take another one of those...Now I have to borrow my mom's 80's something Grand Marquis....Talk about boat...All you people that have Hondas...I'm jealous..I think I get like 12 miles to the gallon.......And that's why I'm broke. Ummmm......I'm 8 months pregnant...It's a little girl. She's due April 22nd, but, I'm so huge I can barely walk now...And it's miserable. I still don't know what to name her. I've always been bad with names. I have a couple picked out though:

1. Caelyn

2. Alexis

3.Raegan

I'm thinking about putting the first two together but I don't know....I'll just have to wait and see what she looks like...Hopefully ME!  Sorry, but, baby girl Harry Potter's just don't float my boat....

Well, thats all for now...I gotta pee... I'm being kicked in the bladder.

Hey! Wow...Lot's has happened. Well...I don't work at the same Bueno anymore. I quit because if I didn't, they were gonna transfer Jack to a different Bueno and he didn't want that. So, I worked at Simple Simon's for like a month...Then, the Bueno they were gonna send my Jack to, I went to. And got the job. So awesome...And I got a 50 cent raise...Yea...Well, my mom's psycho...What else is new...She's all goin' nuts because I have 5 and a half more months here...Then, I'm movin' out. I can't wait!! I'm so excited!! I'm gonna have so much fun at my new place! Yea...anyway...The Jack thing...Not just a crush anymore...We're like hella close. I know him inside and out, almost...And vice versa. It's weird, but, hey whatever...Gotta have someone to lean on. And Susan's not there anymore...She's my mom's little tattle tale....So, I don't talk to her much....Oh, yea...I got a cell phone! I'm so happy. It's so cute! And, now, I can actually talk on the phone without being yelled at all the time. Only thing is, Susan told my mom I was talking on it in the middle of the night, and my mom takes it at night. Because Susan's a little brat like that....It's all good though. Gotta make the best of it. 5 and a half more months of hell. I think my birthday's on a Friday. On Spring Break...So, all that week, I'm gonna be moving stuff. How fun is that....But, I've already decided what all I'm taking with me, so, it shouldn't be that hard. Oh, man, I'm freezing! Someone come warm me up! Well, I'm gonna go.

Cass

I haven’t been on here in quite a while!

Well…let’s see…Summary of the last month and a half….I WORKED MY ASS OFF! 40+ hour weeks…every week… But, I’ve got the biggest crush on my 44 year old manager…It’s awful and definitely abnormal, and I don’t know whether or not it’s because I’m placing him as a father figure, or whether it’s a romantic attraction…NO FRIGGIN’ CLUE!!! But, it’s fun. And it makes me happy, so…it’s all good. Umm…I’ve lost like 20-30 pounds…I didn’t really notice until I went out and bought new pants. I’ve dropped 2 sizes. And my favorite belt is way too big… Umm…David Johnson’s back in town. For a bit. I missed him like crazy! He came and saw me like his 1^st day back, and we ended up making out. And did that for like 4 days…And this Shea kid’s got something for me. At summer school. That’s nuts. Umm…My hair’s not black and red anymore…It’s plain old brown! It makes me look “normal.” Hmmph! Ummm…Kami came back to Bueno. And she’s such a bitch. Good God. She’s got this competitive thing going on with me…And she wasn’t like that when she left, but, now, since she’s gained like 30 pounds and she’s fat, and I lost it and I’m not, she’s jealous. I guess. I’m also faster than her, and all the managers like me way better because I’m not a lazy ass and I don’t stand there and eat all the time. I can actually play around and get work done at the same time.. Like when Jack shot me in the face with sour cream. Hmmph! Oh! Another thing…If you study like the work atmosphere and stuff, you can automatically tell that I’m Jack’s favorite. Like hands down…Anyway, Kami keeps deliberately trying to piss me off and she’s all,  “I’m Jack’s favorite. Blah blah blah…” And I know it’s sooo kindergarten, but, I’m sooo Jack’s favorite. And he even told me so…So, I don’t know what the fuck her problem is…Dumb bitch. I got the Shinedown cd! I’m so excited! It’s sooo good! Anyway…I’m hungry, so, I’m going.

Cassi

Good God! I’m so STRESSED OUT!!!

1. My mom is being major, overcontrolling bitch. I can’t work past 10 on weeknights. If my job calls me in, I can’t go…”It’s not your fault if they need to help…You don’t need to go in to cover up their mistake.” Ummm….I’m a ho. I’m obsessed with every guy that comes along. My manager is “sexually harassing me.”

2. My Dad is being major dickhead. He decides that out of 17 years of not being there, not giving me any rules, not showing he cares, that he’s gonna start telling me what to do.

3. I’m sooo…in desperate need of a guy…I don’t know whether or not I’m just horny, or, testosterone withdrawal.

4. I’m a klutz.

Anyway…yea, funny story on the last one…I’m running to get my manager, at work (duh) and I slipped and fell on the rug, in front of all the customers, and everything…and busted my ass…it hurt…

Cassi